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It has been ages since I blogged. Yeah, I am back here again, to continue the story of my life. There has been so much changes in my life since I blogged. Love, life and activities….and so on…

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First of all, finals is coming soon. I just going to finish my Chemistry notes. Its so hard. Never felt so terrible before. But…its not impossible for me to do it well! Hee…Yong Pei Ling never failed in her exam!!! So, I will try my very best, my best shot, even for the sake of not sleeping, must do well. Gambateh!!!

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Wonder why my style of writing a bit….weird. Like a child…Er…no….I am being optimistic. So damn many things happened…of course I am getting more…erm….do not know how to say the word. My vocab….need some brush up.

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Life in Uni really made me realise a lot of things. If you want something, you do have to sacrifice, either your time or studies or give up something. Actually I do not really hoped for high achievements in Uni, or being  recognise by other people…bla bla… I just want to get into something I like and enjoy, learn something from it, so that I can grow to a better person and having a balanced life.

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Sometimes when I think back, I really miss the time being with him and yeah, I even tried to bring him back to my life. And then, I realise that is not the only thing I should really focus on. There are many other opportunitites ahead for me to accomplish. I have to let go. There is a question I wanted to ask him but scared that the answer is negative. His promise of one year still on hold?

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Recently, I have been appointed to be the OCP of TRP in Aiesec. It was some sort of life changing experience. I never dreamt of that before and I am a bit scared. Scared I could not lead well, scared I am not inspiring enough. Upon being an OCP, I know its time for me to change myself. But I do not know how to, what to change, what to remain. I do not want to change myself without my own identity. The peiLing soul must still be there.

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I wished someone is there to accompany me along the journey….:)

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it hurts

we are friends.
we chat.
we talk.
but its just so different.
the feel is no longer there.
its cold.
it hurts.
a lot.

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Perhaps…

Maybe you don’t need me in your life

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Maybe you did feel  better without me

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You probably live better without me

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Do you?

<……3

I probably did extra thing. I just want to make a change, thats all. What did I do wrong?

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I just want to have a sweet morning talk with someone I loved but it turned out to be a disaster.

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Yeah, I am doing extra thing. I should not disturb you in the morning. I should not have called you.

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I should not. I should not.

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It is not about winning, its about being hurt…